Life = cartoooooonnnn

Crash and Burn

10:28 PM | Saturday, May 31, 2008

It was so selfish`

When I was with him, I totally forgotten about the people around me.
Those who gave me special attention, their care & concern , made sacrifices for me , given me support when I am down and their love.
I gave up so much for him and just heartlessly thrash them away without considering how they felt.
I cannot blame them for treating me differently now, I cannot blame them for hating me.
There are so many things I want to say, just seeing you walk away.
Deep regrets surrounds me, but there is only one thing I can say.
"I am sorry."

Valentines Day

12:00 AM |

My plans got screwed up honeyyy.

29th May, Thursday
It was Civil Defence Course.
And Porky screwed us up like fuck. -.-
"MEET AT YISHUN MRT AT 07 30"
Yeahh baby, where was he? Sleeping. -.-
So we had to hitch a ride from Char`s and took 2494214214 rounds around Yishun.
If it were a taxi, I bet we will have owe $3543510483483 bucks already.
Anyway, course was average, it wasnt that bad.
The sir was nice :]
And they had a SJI hottie there *cheekopek smile*
Okay. Fine, not that hot, just above average.
After course, headed to Northpoint , slacked for like 10mins and order STRAWBERRY MILKSHAKE.
After that, ciaos & headed home to zzzzzzz.

30th May, Friday
It was Ah Ma`s 10th year death anniversary today ._.
Got up, had maths tuition & then prepared flowers.
Changed and left for Seragoon.
It was fast , like really fast.
But it felt like 3493253295 years , tio bad bad headache again ._.
Came home, tio tummy ache, but I still went for sebaki training.
Dont cha think I rock? ;D

Okay, I am done for two days.
People might be wondering how I am doing?
One word : Fab (:
Friends help out a lot (:
& I am starting to miss Clapper =/
Everybody is going away! =(

Bye Bye

1:25 PM | Wednesday, May 28, 2008

大家我回来了！我知道你们很想念我 :D
Yes. I am back to create more trouble & to entertain people (:

PERAK was a blast.
I miss perak already... & not forgetting the riverbank crew.
Edward`Max`Tarts`Michelle` & last but not least.. I forget her name ._. This is so embarrassing.
I miss WHITEWATER RAFTING, CAVING , ABSEILING FROM A 14 FEET WATERFALL , NIGHT WALK , CAMPFIRE , BEAUTIFUL SCENERY & NOT BATHING FOR TWO DAYS IN A ROW >< .

Man, I LOVE PERAK & THE PEOPLE WHO MADE IT ALL WORTHWHILE : PLATOONMATES :D

My welcome note wise ; was very unexpected =(
I was really looking forward to talking to you but ironically,out came something heartbreaking.
And I apologise for being harsh , but you have to understand I was hurt by you twice & you did not even feel the way I did.
I gave my all for you and now my heart is in two.
However, despite the fact that I am upset and really do not want this, I will respect your decision and not runaway and lie to myself, instead I will face the truth.
Right now, gimme time to lock you out and till I am settled down. In other words, let me dao you for awhile.
Just informing you that I dont hate you or whatever fuck, I am just in a recovering state.
Lets hope that we can still continue our gossips , fun and laughter after I regain back my life.
For now, take care (:
I will come back harder, better , faster & stronger.

Miscellaneous
28th`Wed- Slack all day at home.
29th`Thu- Start on Language Arts assignments.
30th`Fri- Sebaki training & *CIP with kailin
31st`Sat- Family stuff
1st`Sun- Family stuff & bro`s 2nd kyu test.

who wants to book me for the hols? ;D

Only Love

10:23 PM | Thursday, May 22, 2008

SHERILYN IS GONNA M-I-A for awhile.

Perhaps Perak is a good idea.
I really need a break away from my peers and family. So many things have been happening and my head is spinning. I bet Superwoman herself cant stand what I am going through.
At the same time, I should do some serious thinking and self-reflect and make use of the trip to bond in more with my platoonmates(:

Talking about Perak.
I need to pack asap ._.

JUNE HOLS!0`8
Here`s my itinerary:
1)Collect at least 20 hours of CIP ( KHOO KAILIN FASTER GET THE DETAILS! )
2)Do some catching up with studies and improve for CA2 and EOYs.
3)LOOSE THE FATS! ( Alanna,wanna shoot with me? :D)
4) Have interaction time with darlings` (:
5)Try out something new ;D (Lecin suggested bboying ._. )

Little Miss Obsessive

3:20 PM | Wednesday, May 21, 2008

My life is really fcuk-up. =/
Currently, I feel like Bella Swan from the twilight series.
Let me tell you my story.

My Edward is busy with his MIA-ing.
My Edward is not as hot as the real Edward Cullen. (hahas. i kid baby! ;D)
My Edward hates Jacob prolly jealous as well. ( Same story ._.)
My Edward is a bit childish & super paikia :D
My Edward is super understanding (:

Now on Jacob.
My Jacob is currently getting pissed of at me for some reason & thinks I dont care for him.
My Jacob is giving me an impression that I should stay away from him & at the same time is upset ._.
My Jacob thinks we should not be as close like we did before just because I am unavailable. 0.0
My Jacob thinks I no longer need him or want him anymore.
Jacob is not very happy I am with Edward.(Perhaps?)
& plus Jacob has loads of sweethearts, sometimes I really wonder if I should be the one thinking he does not care ._. Surprising he still cares about me. ><

I am so caught between those two.
Aiyahhh. Should I just have both & let them hate each other & have constant argues with them?
Or should I just break one of their hearts?
Am I just being too greedy?
I just dont want to argue with "Edward" over "Jacob"
& I dont want "Jacob" to get upset because I have "Edward".

And many thanks to Cheri` for being understanding.
And knowing that I have friends & that I have my freedom to have good friends around me.
To "Jacob" ( I hope you know I am talking about you)
I care. Whether you like/believe it or not.

Whatever it is.
I love them both (of cos not equally)
As a Cheri` & a good friend.
Obviously I have to give more piority to Cheri` because he is my.. my Cheri`. =X
But I dont want to lose a good friend.
Get the point? =/
Sigh. Loving someone is such a pain.
Loving two people who hate each other is much worst =(

Somebody save me. TT

Low

9:36 PM | Monday, May 19, 2008

HAPPY VESAK DAY ! (:
190508`

Yes babyy, I had fun :D
Heres my story :

Rachel baby came over at like 9.30?
& I just woke up with my jim jams on.
Damn paisehh larhs.
& Then Rachel suggested I go bathe while PEPPER entertains her(:
The most favourite thing she loves in my house & perhaps the only reason why she likes comin` over. ><
Recieved a call from Lecin & to find out kailin cant make it...
Nevermind. Had sort of expected it? =X
Amelia came over after 40 mins & then Lecindra was L-A-T-E.

And I am proud to say that we completed most of our tasks.(:
THANKS TO ME.
Muahahaha.

Headed to WEST MALL & lunched.
Movie plans were spolit due to the ticket prices ._.
Arcade for awhile & I owned Lecin in practically everything :D
Oh & Amelia left us.
Bet she missed us after a sec passed. (:

West Mall was boring...
Came home & slacked like shit. ._.
We talked crap & Rachel Ang was being retarded with PEPPER. ><
Rachel Ang has issues with cute dogs. 0.0

Okay lets fly to a heavier note.
Someone is pissed with me again. ._.
I AM SORRY LARH.
I THINK I TIO STM. ><
I DIDNT MEAN TO FORGET. =((

fine.
Here are some pics. (P.s doing it for Lecindra)
Do enjoy =//

Sweetness

2:13 PM | Sunday, May 18, 2008

Add (R) before your nick, and microsoft donates to children victims of the earthquake.http://info.msn.com.cn/caihong/rainbow.html
Aaahh. People be nice (:

Friday`s session was a bomber babyy :D
So much better than sensei`s boring 28 steps ><
Kinda sad yo, sensei wont allow me to take 1st kyu test ! >(
Argh, have to wait till sept =(
Sherilyn twisted her knee during sparing.
Currently like some pai kar woman ><
Nevermind, I can still walk at least.

E-LEARNING!
Anyone wants to volunteer & help me with it? =X
Pretty Please? TT

Outta My Head

4:54 PM | Saturday, May 17, 2008

Okay. I`ve got a hectic schedule coming up.

1) MONDAY 190508
-VESAK DAY
-GEOG/LIT proj (tentative)
(People please confirm asap!)

2)THU 220508
-NCC ROD
-Prepare No.3 Uniform =(
-Polish No. 3 boots ><

3)SUN-TUE 250508-270508
-Pack for Perak

I need to MIA for awhile yo; =//

Piece of me

6:30 PM | Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I WANT SO MANY THINGS!
URHHH!

I HATE BEING POOR!! >(
FUCK. I AM ANGRY & UPSET.

WISHLIST
1) SHINY LOGO BLACK SUPERMAN TEE $22.00
2) PLAIN WHITE BOYFRIEND SHIRT $13.50
3) COOKIE MONSTER FACE SHIRT $11.00
4) I LOVE DANCING SHIRT $12
5) PRINTED TEE!

P.S I AM A SIZE M!
BUY ANYONE FOR ME & I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER.
DAMN I AM ANGRY.

oh. oh.
ANYONE WANTS TO BOOK ME ON THE 19TH? :D
SHERILYN wants to go out ._.

and.
I DONT WANT TO SEE A NEUROLOGIST!
I WANT TO BUANG MIR SCAN.
ITS BLOODY SCARY & PAINFUL.

knn.=(

Talk is cheap

4:41 PM |

Seriously, I dont wanna get involved with the stupid theft case that is going on.
-.- Its stupid & stupid.

Anyway, 1st _ _ _ _ _ was not really a 1st _ _ _ _ _.
I celebrated it with OM & a tension headache =X
Pathetic. You owe me Cheri.
& You better make it up to me as promised :D

Okay, I guess OM went pretty well.
Considering the fact that we were really slack.
Oh, I screwed maths test, i didnt finish it...
Stupid Poky, didnt even warn us that it was going to be times up.
I guess I was really into the paper...

Whatever, I just wanna jump down the building & end my screwy life. ._.

Gomenasai

9:03 PM | Monday, May 12, 2008

HAPPY _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Y TO ME in advance. =//
ONE MORE DAY.

its gonna be lonely. =(

Misery business

10:19 PM | Friday, May 9, 2008

WHERE'D YOU GO.
I MISS YOU SO.

Omg lah. 为什么？！
Trust, a simple word yet it is filled with complexity. Trust is a statement about what is otherwise unknown. Trust is earned, not bestowed. In this is complex world, who can we really trust? In our relationship with our family, friends, teachers, etc, trust is of utmost importance in determining the level of intimacy we share. The degree of trust that you have on a friend or foe allows him/her to manipulate your mind. The value of trust is immeasurable and is the basis for any relationship.

To unknown,
Do you know how much A trusted you? Yet you remained self-centred and decided to go backstab your good friend who had trusted & had faith in you . Look at the consequnces now, A paid the price for you. Feeling good about it? You got away with it.
Just want to pass the message and say thanks.
"Trust when broken, is never to be mended".
Feeling gulity? Regretting?
Go do some self reflection will you.

To _ _ _ _,
For now concentrate on getting better okay? =//
Loads of misses TT

Happy Birthday

9:06 PM | Wednesday, May 7, 2008

EVERYBODY! I GOT 22.5/25 FOR GEOG!
BETCHA JEALOUS.
SHERILYN IS ONE GENIUS SHIT.

btw, dumb dumb lecindra got full marks.!@#$*()_$%^@$#%^~!@#
I hate you.
You have my permission to shoot yourself now.

Today was a bomber.
Except the fact when I fell & bruised my butt badly.
And when i burned my tonuge.
It still hurts ><

Lunched with Lecindara, Rachel A & Rachel O.
Procceed to my's to slack & finish up with our IP essays.
Headed to the playground to slack a bit more & man , I am feeling damn shagged now. >< HEADLINES : RACHEL ANG CANNOT SWING!
L-O-S-E-R!
Legs super itchy, mozzies must have a wonderful time molesting my legs.
Came back & slacked at the pool.
Thanks Lecin, thanks for pushing me into the water.
Nevermind, I had fun(:

Here are some random pics!(:
ENJOY! :D

Voodoo Doll

10:14 PM | Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Schedule on Conserving SMS-ES

HELLDAYS!(a.k.a SCHOOL DAYS)
I am going to be a guai kia & start switching off my phone the moment I step into school.
Reason being :
1) Resist the temptation of checking texts from pai kias. ;D
2)Obey school rules and not to give teachers bad impression ;D
3)Motive behind these two rules, is to conserve texts =//

I feel like some poor shit loser.
Oh wells, what to do?

Replying starts ONLY between 2pm-4pm and 8pm-10pm.
And I shall only reply after 10mins after a text is recieved.(:

HEAVEN DAYS!(a.k.a PUBLIC HOLS & WEEKENDS)
Mass replies activated between 10am-12noon, 2pm-4pm and 8-10pm.
And will only reply after 10mins after recieving.

However, I do entertain phone calls (:
Incoming calls that is...
Do not even dare think of outgoing or else you can just shoot yourself right now.
And fellow text mates, please do not accuse me of dao-ism, I do not dao my babys(:

Thinking twice about it...
It is not such a bad plan after all huh...
Gosh, SHERILYN really rocks (:

Dance Floor Anthem

6:25 PM |

BEWARE OF KAILIN THE BOOB SMASHER.

Fuck history common test.
I once again have failed it _l_
I wanna give up manzx.
I AM SO BUANGING HISTORY FOR GEOG NEXT YEAR.

I really wanna MIA from school.
I am sick of study 7 days in a week! x(
I want my freedom baby.
CAN YOU PLEASE JUST GIVE IT BACK YOU SELFISH SHIT!? T.T

Time to say goodbye

9:12 AM | Saturday, May 3, 2008

"I dont not wish for nothing in exchange-
No gifts; No goods ; No demostrations of devotions.
Nothing but knowing you loved me too.
Just your heart, in exchange for mine."

Awww. SUUUEEEETTT(:

1ST MAY 2008
celebrated with Kailin'jiejie & Vee'mummaye(:
Although we spent most of the time slacking.
I know we had fun, didnt we? :D
Met Cheri toos (:

Been aruging & fighting with Cheri these few days... =//
But I know we wont let it overpower us but we will grow stronger right dear?

I have no mood to blog.
I just lost my life to common tests ><
Fuck Common Tests.